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Thursday, October 22, 2009
♥ 12:58 PM
Hey peoples. Yes I'm back after such a longgg break from this (: so far things have been very very hectic for me. Alot of things have happened since the last time I blogged and it's really caught my attention that my life is going down the road of no return.

I'm not trying to be emo or anything, but seriously...I've been breaking down too much lately, but thankfully I have very good people by my side who picks me up whenever I fall (yes I'm talking about you SHARON CHENG!!)

Lately I've been trying to chase happiness and change the way things are supposed to go instead of my usual style of going with the flow. From today onwards I shall not do that ever again!! I'm back to going with the flow because..it is true when people say that the rain doesn't last forever.

Life is what you make it right? If you wanna live life happily and to its fullest then who has the right to actually stop you? I'm gonna keep that in mind. No matter what, I gotta stay on the positive side of things because being on the negative side of things has not been working out too well for me. It has instead turned me into the person I hate.

I don't wanna be that person who savours self-pity like a plate of chicken wings (great interpretation huh?) I'm not gonna sit here and moan about shit that has already happened. Yes, it is a well-known fact that my life hasn't exactly been going the way I hoped for it to go this year, but who am I to judge fate? There's a reason for everything and I've been trying to find the reason for all the recent 'incidents' in my life, but to no avail.

So, what other options do I have left? Go back to my old ways. Well not the whole package, just the happy-go-lucky carefree one. I'm tired of chasing love, life and happiness. I'm just gonna let everything come to me.

"Patience is virtue"

Watching people fall in love and be happy hurts when you're the one who keeps getting fucked over by people, but hey...my time will come. I know it. I just gotta wait like any other person on the planet. I'm sure I'm not the only person who feels this way right now. It's funny how sometimes things fall into place and makes sense just when you're about to give up or when you have finally broken down in the worst possible way.

I wanna be optimistic about things from now on. Considering my current situation, it's not gonna be easy. But whoever said living was gonna be easy? It's hard, but it doesn't mean I can't do it happily right?

College has been hell. I'm very worried about my end of year results and it has been killing me. My week has been soo crazy. My parents are out of town for a week and I've been having so much fun, but ofcourse an idiot always has to pop outta nowhere and screw everything up.

No, scratch that cos why should I let one asshole ruin the fun for me? Totally not worth it. I find it so pointless to cry about things now cos what's the point of crying over stupid issues or people? It's a waste of my tears. A woman's tears are full of emotion, be it anger, sadness, joy, jealousy or any other emotion. As long as a woman's crying..her tears will be filled with either happiness or sadness, if described bluntly ofcourse.

So why waste all these emotions on one stupid person?

Pointless right?

I know.

So from now onwards, 4.14am I'm gonna change my outlook on life. Optimism is now my favourite word (:


so til next time guys, I'm back on my blogging habit.

ciao bello

-and this she wrote.
&MORE
it shows
And so a cry for help is pointless,

she stood above her lies

above her sins

above her guilt

need not fear life

need not fear death

part my love

depart from here

for the beauty standing infront of you is deception
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♥WISHLIST

♥2nd Annie with the BF

♥Get my own laptop

♥watch the sun set

♥Be satisfied with 2009

♥Get driver's license right after I turn 18

♥New fly ass car

♥Get through this issue. 030509

♥Own a Nokia N97

♥I'll let you know when other wishes come up