L-O-V-E

if music be the food of love,
then play on.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

♥ 8:46 PM

What should I do? Why do I feel this way...? Baby I know you love me, but is it too much to ask for what I want? Staying at home all day, not going out, not having my social life back. It's not me.

I'm a wild creature. I can't stand staying indoors. Why do you fear the outside world so much? Yes, you've gone through alot and I understand, but why do you have to pull me into your misery as well? I love you no doubt...but can I keep going on this way trying to get used to it? Going out without your consent, without you knowing...Telling you lies.

I didn't think love was going to be this easy, but I didn't think that it was going to be this hard too.

im confused.

im anxious.

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

At times, I'm so happy with you, but at times, the what if's get to me and I start questioning everything. I love you, but is my freedom and my old self worth giving up? Yes I do not know as much about how the world works, and yes, I know what I was before, it wasn't a nice thing to be, but I can change, just not this much baby...

I can't be all that you want me to be. It's not my nature. How can I change my own way of life for a simple thing called love? For you...yes I love you...but..what if it's just not enough? Think about it...

If you love me, you would accept me for who I am. Not what you want me to be.

Simple as that.

&&the words I long to speak for so long..

-and this she wrote.

it shows

And so a cry for help is pointless,

she stood above her lies

above her sins

above her guilt

need not fear life

need not fear death

part my love

depart from here

for the beauty standing infront of you is deception

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HER ALONE

you know me

♥JESHIE

Music's my passion.

I'm a balancing act. Got the good in me, but I got that bad ass side as well.

Nice, if you don't cross me. Hell, if you do piss me off (:

I hate drama, but it sticks to me like glue

I HATE it when people think they know me cos they probably wouldn't unless they're close

♥WISHLIST

♥~~2nd Annie with the BF~~

♥~~Get my own laptop~~

♥~~watch the sun set~~

♥Be satisfied with 2009

♥Get driver's license right after I turn 18

♥New fly ass car

♥~~Get through this issue. 030509~~

♥Own a Nokia N97

♥I'll let you know when other wishes come up